Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies
I want to walk with you, on a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee kigh
So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you to come away with me in the night
Come away with me


Norah Jones.

2 more days and counting. 2007 is almost over and it seems like just yesterday that i told Helen that there was no way this year would go by in a flash while she so vehemently tried to dissuade and dispelmy obviously incorrect theory. Now there are but 2 days left of this year, and i'm left here wondering if this is how quickly the rest of our lives are going to go by. In a flash. So speedily that we know not what has hit us till we feel the vast impact of the after shock.

Its at times like these when i reminisce the time my elders told me tales of how, the time you stopped wanting to grow older would be the moment when time would seem to take on a life of its own, and boy were they right. Spot on. I find myself wishing otherwise. Wishing that they were anything but right, cuz right now, all i can see is my life passing so rapidly before my eyes without any ability to control it, slow it down, or stop it.

So, as i look back on 2007, here are some of the things that pop into mind with but a mere moments notice:

1. Aunty Sarah passed away, followed closely by Kenny. I still havent got over it. Wonder if i ever will. i wonder if it ever gets easier.
2. I got closer to so many people and i gained two best friends who i now consider as close to my heart as sisters are. Helen and Rach, i love you guys. Helen! Hurry up and come back from England! its too damn cold and dreary down there! and rach! i'll see you soon baby!
3. My prior best friends, joce, jing and lyz. We have somehow made a concerted effort and kept in touch. I know its hard as hell to maintain a friendship after having not been in the same country for about 2 years. but somehow, we managed to do it. I love all 3 of you guys, and though we're far apart in distance, u guys'll always have a peice of my heart. forever. JOCELYN ELIZABETH GUNA!!! i love you for always being there for me, when i need to smile, vent, cry, torture you, and call you horrid names like piggy, your there. and for that, thank you. from the bottom of my heart. i'll make sure the guy who failed miserably with the surprise party treats you well always. :)
4. People i miss: sammy! ( i love you my anjadi aunty!), lata, joel, shannon, nick, thanesh, sharon, aruna, sharan (i'm so glad we finally got closer!), rajiv (even though 1/2 the time i wanna KILL YOU), bernice, khai,vithya, nish,wei ling, darshini, vanessa and if i missed anyone out i'm SO sorry!
5. i successfully completed my VCE making it to the top 10% of the state. secured an internship at a couple of mags and TV stations, entered a literature festival, learned how to play footy and then got my ass kicked along with the other Yr 12 girls. *sob*

I think the biggest accomplishment i've made this year, is that i made i through relatively unscathed. there were ups, and downs, but i made it through. and THANK GOD FOR THAT! i wouldnt have been able to make it through without my Lord Jesus, and most importantly, my family. So, what i have to say right now, is to BRING ON 2008! I'll handle anything you throw at me. Uni, here i come!

I don;t know what the future holds, no idea whatsoever, but what i do know is that i'm ready for it, for my new beginning armed with old lessons learnt throughout the years. I'm ready for my future. and call me crazy, but i can't wait.

Its 3.50am, I just got back to my room, And alas, its Christmas.

I feel like i spent the entire year, waiting and yearning for all the festivities and joyful celebrations which come with the territory of the season of love, giving, family and an accumulation of wonderful memories. And its finally here. At last. The only trepidation i feel encompassed by my overwhelming embracement of the holiday, is that after the incredibly long wait, its all gonna be over so soon. As is the case with most good things.

Christmas is by far my favourite holiday. It outranks any other competing season or holiday, even my birthday and New Year. Its the time when the whole world unites, regardless of race or religion, whether or not you're christian and believe in the spiritual aspect of the day, you somehow just can't help but be caught up with the vibrant colours, enthusiastic caroling, the hustle and bustle of last minute shopping for loved one on the 24th of dec. Its so intrinsic that its hard to describe. but its one of those feelings which only christmas is blessed to deliver to recipients all around the world.

This christmas was a radically special one. Firstly cause its our first xmas in our new house. but also cuz, for the first time in 2 whole years, the WHOLE family is together, conjugated in one place. and the feeling i get as a result of that is indescibable. Beyong words. Beyond tears, even beyong emotions. Its that powerful. Its been a long time coming, and i'm glad we're finally all here. I missed it all. All in all, this xmas has been perfect. Having said that, it doesnt mean that it was without flaws. Oh no! not even close! The day started out with me being rudely awoken from a deep slumber (having a VERY nice dream might i add), to o some last minutes xmas shopping, and having been told that it would be no longer than a hour, i decided to wear my fav pair of heels. BIG mistake. Turns out it took about 5 hours, and 1/2way through that, my feet were killing me so bad that i was nothing short of FORCED to buy a pair of flip flops. Then came the wrapping of the pressies at home. and, omg, they just came one after another. But the point i'm trying to make here is that, it was perfect in all its imperfections. It was those flaws and mishaps which make unforgettable memories. My memories; of the neverending bouts and flares of anger, all that impeccable noise, and the general chaotic ambiance which tends to surround any of our family occasions. And i love every minute of it.

Alright, i'm out! Stories and pics of the day will follow soon. But for now, i'm perfectly contented, falling into slumber with the radient pure glow the full moon exudes, substituting for the light my bedside lamp usually provides, and the soothing melody of the carol "What child is this" which is currently playing on the radio. Its lulling me to sleep, and i'm only too happy to oblige. Its been a magical time. So beautiful, that this is one of those that you wish never goes away. If only i could put this day on repeat.

Did i mention that i absolutely ADORE christmas!!!!? Night world! and have a BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!

Sorry i haven't updated in a while, been really busy what with christmas coming, and all the shopping, and tearing my head apart, wondering what to get certain ppl. But yea, my results...

Well, i did REALLY well! All that hard work finally paid off. All in all, i'm in the top 10% of the entire state, so needless to say, i'm beyond estatic! Thanks to everyone for their prayers and well wishes! Love all of you!

I'm out for now, so damn tired, and i've still got stuff to do. All this running helter skelter, and chaos my family seems to be thrown into every christmas season is back again. It gives new meaning to the term "the maddening crowd". but i absolutely LOVE it! its by far my favourite holiday season. I'll write again soon!

Ever pushed something imperitive to the back of your mind, convincng yourself that it could be dealt with at a later date simply cause it was a long way away?

Yea, i have too. Guilty as charged. And this crime comes in the form of my looming results. As of Monday, the 17th of Dec, at 7am, my results, the key to my future as i've envisioned it, will be revealed to me. And God help me, but every single time i so much as THINK about it, or hear anything results related being mentioned by someone around me, the heart rate takes off at speeds you can't even concieve. And lemme tell you, its not a good thing. Seriously! i'm gonna end up giving myself a heart attack one of these days with my incessant hyperventilation.

I keep asking myself how the time passed so fast. I mean, the last time i checked, exams JUST finished! But i guess thats what meant by the concept of "fleeting time". Now you see it, and now you don't. So come Mon, i'm gonna hafta face the music, so to speak.

All i need to see on that computer screen is a 96. Needless to say, thats no easy feat. but i get it. sorta. Stupid people can't become journalist. So simply put, i need to be in the top 4% of the entire state. WAY to freak myself out again. I'm starting to ramble as i always seem to do when i'm in a state of disrest. So i'm gonna stop now. For my sake and for the sakes of everyone who's reading this. Just cross your fingers for me guys. And your toes and eyes as well if you could bare to spare them for a lil time. Can't promise to repay the favour, but i'll TRY.

Now, off to another sleepless night. Tossing and turning and imagining the worst possible scenarios. No need for nightmares! No sir-ree! My imagination is my very own catalyst for all nightmares could possibly deliver to my already unstable state. Oh boy. I REALLY need help.

Night World!

Passion.

It enslaves us. Inoculates our senses. Consumes our very being.

It torments us with its very existence, captures the very core of us, making us puppets in the wider scheme of things, a mere prop in a grand theaterical production we call life.

If we're fortunate enough to posses it, we somehow find so much "colour" in our lives that we resort to shying away from it, just to retain some shred of sanity which pulls us back to reality. Because the sheer complexity and intricacy of it all somehow seems to numb our common sense. So much so, that the very existence of passion creates a stepping stone to chaos, somehow accentuating it. Creating a world where we're helpless to the wiles of unpredictability.

Yet without it, we're left feeling hollow, incomplete. Left with this meaningless sense of incompletion. We'd have the beating heart, the blood flowing through our veins, the ability to breathe. But no actual life.

So, in totality, you could say that passion is the lifeblood of the human race.
Funny how life comes down to one thing. It's almost too simple.

Alrighty, alot of people have been asking about the interview and how it went. Well, it went GREAT! and i got it! Its so amazing cause now, i'm gonna be able to get all sorts of experience pertaining to TV. I'm gonna be able to help out with the producing, writing, camera work, shooting, i get to follow them on shoots, editing...blah blah blah. Needless to say, i'm beyond excited.

Tonight is Helen's dinner. One of my best mates is headed off to England for one month to visit the rest of her family. I'm gonna miss her! Well anyways, tonight is gonna be the last time is see her till next year. So the gang is gonna get together and bid her farewell. Then after that me and my bro are going to Ravi's 20th birthday party @ Jimmy's place. The poor dude can't seem to fathom that he's turned 20! lool! poor ravi. oh well, he'lll get over itt. So yea, tonight's gonna be quite hectic, shuffling from one place to the next. But it'll be fun!

Speaking of fun, yesterday was SO FUN! Az, rach, lili and me got together, laughed alot, did a TONNE of stupid things, tried on perfumes, watched a movie, looked at their old yearbooks and talked about how next mon, we would have all got out results. and if course, me being me, i started stressing and they had a BLAST making fun of me and how badly i wanted to do well. Horrid people. But oh well, i love em.

NEWSFLASH!! Not that its of any interest to anyone but me, but the "M" button on my keypad is being stubborn and not co-operating with me. Gotta get my uncle to check it out, cuz God knows how badly i reek at computers. Or anything pertaining to technology for that matter. For now, i'm off to get ready! Ciaoz!

ouch. ouch. ouch. thats pretty much the word reverberating through my head right now. Why u ask? well, nothing dire or anything. my aunt just pulled my eyebrows for me since i've made a disaster out of it since she's been gone in Perth. and well, it didnt look all too good. In my family, whenever someone's eyebrows looks like a rainforest, we've nicknamed it "skippy the bush kangaroo". and today, i was skippied! :( so i knew it was time to ask for aid. and that would be puttin it nicely. so yea, she just "cleaned up the mess i made". LOL!

My week has been pretty ordinary. For the most part anyways. I've been calling some newspapers, magazines, tv and radio stations, enquirng about the availibility of work experience. Cause in journalism, thats everything. and man! is it competitive! i've got a couple of favourable replies but i'm not gonna say anything about it just yet cuz i dont wanna jinx it. I've got an interview on friday for a TV station. and bOY am i scared, but i've decided, they sure as hell don't want people who are scared, thats not being a journalist is all about. they want people who arnt afraid to say the things which everyone else thinks but never project out loud. They want someone who could, both literally and metophorically "grab a bulls balls" as one not-so-wise mate of mine informed me. hahah!.

so i'm gonna walk into that interview on friday, and be the confident, dazzling, witty and intelligent joanna i know is in there somewhere. Just gotta stop hyperventilating and shaking like a leaf first. God help!

So, thats friday. i hafta go into the city for that one, and tmr, i'm finally gonna get to see Helen after God knows how long! i miss that girl so much! We're gonna spend the day together, just shopping, chilling, movie-ing (i know thats not a word, but work with me here), and just basically spending some quality time together before she heads off to England to visit her family. Mmm, one month w/o Helen Woodhouse. However will i survive? Oh well, atleast i still have Rachel La! who i'm seeing together with Azzie on Monday! weeeeee! can't wait!

Sometimes, telling the truth isnt always good, and telling lies isnt always bad.

My heart's aching right now. I've tried being patient, understanding. Even made excuses for him. But there comes a point where i NEED some reciprocation. Its not a matter of wanting anymore. I NEED it. More than he'll ever know.I need him.

The tears are free flow now, and i don't know how to make it stop. What the hell have i become?