Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away with me where they can't tempt us
With their lies
I want to walk with you, on a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee kigh
So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountain top
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you to come away with me in the night
Come away with me


Norah Jones.

Most of us think we're good people.
That because we're not the perpetrators of evil like Hitler, or Stalin, or Mao, or Pol Pot..
All the names synonymous with the most exacerbated evil history has seen.
The names who make up the reason for millions of lives which were lost.

But somehow, in our lament and crusade to be 'good people'..we forget one imperative fact.

we ARE evil in some sense.

we're evil of inaction.

so next time, before you delcare yourself a 'good person', think long and hard. NOT doing something bad doesnt make you good.

all you are is ignorant.

I now know that the only time i ever realy blog with any form of consistence is when i have a myriad of assignments due..haha! And now's that time. So i guess this is a picture perfect story of procrastination for you! A couple of things..

1) I think i wanna kill my sister. She has no grasp on the meaning of 'SHUT UP'..and doing a politics essay with her screaming out miley cyrus lyrics in the backgroud isnt actually an environment condusive to getting the distinction i want. Oh help.

2) I think i wanna kill my sister cuz for some reason, she's OBSESSED with the music from high school musical, Sharpay in particular..And not only is she obsessed, she cant since to keep that obsession to herself. She has proceeded to memorise the whole soundtrack and is now screaming THAT out too! FUN!

3)I think i hate politics.

4) I think i hate uni (not really, but just for now. Work with me here!)

5) Anyone wanna help me burn down Monash? Please? I cant pay you, but the satisfaction in itself will be the ultimate reward!

6)We can then, without any reservations say "SCREW ASSIGNMENTS!" and actually mean it.

and

7) As is pretty obvious, i'm sure you can all see that i've gone mad. (what's new right?)

LOL! Back to PLT1040.

It only just dawned on me. I never really had any big dreams when i was Singapore. Never. Not that i can recollect anyway.I mean, sure, i had the childish fantasty of being a doctor (and that dream was obliterated when i realised i sucked at chemistry and physics!), and then i wanted to be a meterologist when i was in primary school (but honestly? like i'd be happy informing ppl about the weather all my life!), and then for a brief moment, i thought i might just wanna be a psychologist (and then i realised that my head was probably more warped than anyone who might be suicidal enough to come to ME of all people!)..

And that was pretty much it. Nothing ever concrete though. Nothing to work toward, nothing i eagerly perused university sites for, nothing i fantasised myself doing 10 years from then.

Nothing. Till i came here.

And then, it was like magic. Everything just started falling into place, and for once, i could see a future; and a bright one at that. I mean, to go as far as to say that i know EXACTLY what i wanna do would be a lie. But at the same time, to say that i'm staring into a hopeless oblivion devoid of dreams would be a blatant lie as well..

So for now, i'll just leave it at this. I dont have all the answers, not by a long shot. But i know one day, i WILL be someone great. i WILL be doing something i love. and i WILL be satisfied with my life.

i just wish that day was today. I'd even settle for tomorrow.

Ok, so this is apparently my 100th post. I realise it took me long enough to get here, but hey, with the irregularity of my blogging these days, its not hard to imagine why.

I actually have alot thats been happening, but honestly, writing it all down here is way too draining, and i don't quite have the energy or the will. But one thing i WILL say, is that, life sure has a nasty way of sneaking up on you. Things have the apparent illusion of looking perfect, and then in one felt swoop, things change. Words which cannot be retracted are spoken, tears that cannot be reclaimed are shed, memories which shouldnt be lost are eradicated, and dreams which should have been a reality are shattered.

In short, things change. In the blink of an eye, and your helpless against it.

It sorta feels like the darkness is fast closing in on me now, but then again, when you think about it, theres beauty even in the darkeness, in the dark of the night. And no matter how lost you get, there are always those twinkling stars to point you in the right direction. Show you the way home. Make it all better.

So when the night comes, fear not, cuz theres always the promise of dawn which awaits.
Now if only i could make myself believe that.