Thursday, September 18, 2008
10:37 PM
It only just dawned on me. I never really had any big dreams when i was Singapore. Never. Not that i can recollect anyway.I mean, sure, i had the childish fantasty of being a doctor (and that dream was obliterated when i realised i sucked at chemistry and physics!), and then i wanted to be a meterologist when i was in primary school (but honestly? like i'd be happy informing ppl about the weather all my life!), and then for a brief moment, i thought i might just wanna be a psychologist (and then i realised that my head was probably more warped than anyone who might be suicidal enough to come to ME of all people!)..
And that was pretty much it. Nothing ever concrete though. Nothing to work toward, nothing i eagerly perused university sites for, nothing i fantasised myself doing 10 years from then.
Nothing. Till i came here.
And then, it was like magic. Everything just started falling into place, and for once, i could see a future; and a bright one at that. I mean, to go as far as to say that i know EXACTLY what i wanna do would be a lie. But at the same time, to say that i'm staring into a hopeless oblivion devoid of dreams would be a blatant lie as well..
So for now, i'll just leave it at this. I dont have all the answers, not by a long shot. But i know one day, i WILL be someone great. i WILL be doing something i love. and i WILL be satisfied with my life.
i just wish that day was today. I'd even settle for tomorrow.