Saturday, February 23, 2008
9:14 PM
..Calling all Angels..
Love. Its like an obsession, a rabid addiction.
It makes you yearn for more, craving so much for it
that one day, instead of you partaking of it,
you find that it has sucked you dry
and left you helpless to wither...
Ok, on a less emo note (not for long), uni's started, and all of a sudden, replacing the excitment is now what i call my "blah" feeling. like i mean, what the hell was so exciting about getting back into STUDYING!? All the countless assignments, deadlines, presentations, and as i have newly found out, and ABUNDANCE of reading...God help me. Orientation was pretty alright, the first day was nothing short of miserable beacuse of the rain. It wasn't too nice scuttling around in puddles of H2O and getting splattered with every step. But yea, on the whole, it was alright.
Honeslty, whats all the hype with uni about? I feel tired just thinking about it now. Alright, i know i sound really emo, and SO not like my usual, optimistic, upbeat self, but after what happened on tuesday (i dont really want to talk about it), i'm not too keen on the whole "looking into the future and tryin to map out my dreams. I thought it was all behind me. The worrying about when it was gonna happen, the insecurities about being under the weather, the annoyance of having to be escorted everywhere cause you can't really be trusted around urself. I thought i'd said good bye to all of that, but apparently not. Surprise surprise!!
I wanna just wish it all away. Please, take it back. For once, i just wanna be normal. and love is good, but too much love that borders on babying? It can drive you insane. and i can see myself headed in that direction.