Monday, October 1, 2007
10:45 PM
I hate feeling this way. I've never felt it before , and i have no wish to feel it ever again. It's eating me up, from the inside out. I'm stuck in this rut and i'm trying to clas my way out, but somehow, i cant seem to...
Just when u think its as bad as its gonna get, it gets even more horrendously laconic. How wonderful! how damn wonderful...! I hate the person i've become, so cynical, so scared to trust anyone, to open up, to believe that life holds nothing but "glass half empty" moments. I hate it, and yet, i find myself remaining idle.
PS...Ruth & Sammy, i cant WAIT for u guys to come to Melbourne! Its gonna be AWESOME! wooo hoo!! love u guys! psk...aruna, i'm still hoping and praying for u. I havent forgotton... :)