Good News: The crying has now ceased, i mean, theres still the occasional tear, but i've found the key to not crying. Think about anything and absolutely everything but him. and i'll make it through the day w/o crying. well, w/o crying too much anyway.


Bad News: Though my eyes stay relatively dry now, there seems to be this constant empty. hollowed out feeling in my heart. This constant fear, like the one you get when you're going downwards on the rollercoaster. The feeling's similar i guess, but unlike the fact that you can get off at the end of the rollercoaster ride, there is no getting off here. no going back. no changing the outcome. its stuck in stone. etched into my memory forever; never to be lost.


People keep telling me that i'll get over it, and that time heals all wounds, and i get that. I honestly do. But thats never gonna bring him back, and i'm never gonna stop missing him. Its not gonna get rid of the fact that he died even before he could reach his 17th birthday. Kenny, on top of being family, you'll always be one of my best friends. and i promise never to forget to remember. I love you...always. and you'll always live on, in the memories of those who love you.

In his short span of time on this Earth, he managed to do something most ppl spend their entire lives trying to do, but never achieve.

He made a difference. an actual difference, and i think there's alot to be said about that.

In Loving Memory of my cousin Kenneth...You'll be missed hun. Till we meet again in heaven, always know that i love you.

PS....

and just cause i know you'll LOVE it, i'll say your word for you. You ready, u ready? k here it comes...... WHOOOOOOOOPPPPAAAAHHHHH!!!! haha! u'd better be happy with that, cause its all your getting. =)